Mommy Goes Back to Work

Last Monday marked my first day back at work since Kinsey was born. I had been dreading it for some time, and I knew it was going to be incredibly hard leaving her. Well, it was. I cried each morning and thought about her all day long. I texted and emailed to see how she was doing and raced out the door as fast as I could to go home to be with her. Other working moms tell me it gets easier each day, and I certainly hope they are right because right now I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about not being with her during the day.

It's funny how much your priorities change when you have kids. I used to stay late each day at work and sometimes go in on the weekends. I hated getting up early and would sleep in as late as possible. Now, I get up when Kinsey gets up and I leave work as soon as I can to be with her. I pray that she sleeps all day long so I don't miss anything. I hold her in my arms if she falls asleep in the evening. I love feeding her and looking into her eyes as she drifts off to sleep. I just can't get enough of her.

There are a couple of positives about working that's holding me together. One is the fact that it will be all about family when I'm home from work. Housework, laundry, and schoolwork can wait. The beds don't need to be made every day. We can eat leftovers two nights in a row. There can be weeds in the garden. She is only going to be this little for such a short time, and I'm trying to savor every moment of it. Another positive is Kinsey will get close with her Grandma's. Grandparents can have such a special bond with their grandkids and I want Kinsey to have that. She will really grow to love them and be comfortable with them. I also love teaching and spending time with my students each day.

So keep us in your prayers over these next few weeks. Pray that each day gets easier and that I can trust God with his plans for our family. I pray that she adjusts to the new schedule, new routines, and new people in her life and that she is well taken care of. I also pray that my workload and Mitch's workload could be lightened so that we can spend even more time with her. I also pray that our marriage stays strong and that we can make time for each other through all the craziness. We just love being parents to our beautiful daughter!